balek kampong last weekend. ptg jumaat balek. sabtu rilek. pagi ahad balek sk (nak attend kenduri kawen senior kat mmu dulu, so balek la awal). do u agree with me if i say most of the time government service are suck compared to private service?. pagi ahad seawal 0715 pegi anta abg aku ke hospital for some medical reason. smpai dlm pukol 0730. shud be no problem if i want to go back to kL by 0900++ or 1000 since i THINK it won't take any longer than 2 hours. but i ended up starts my journey at 1200++. heheh. he was the 1st patient of the day for god sake. but they keep delaying. and delaying. and delaying. while there was a lot of other patients come in and out. i understand if they were waiting for some x-ray result or maybe expecting something after injecting him with a medicine, but they did nothing except asking him to lay on the bed(maybe they did check his pulse and blood pressure, but that was all they did). until 0930++ only they called him to x-ray his chest (see what i mean? we were waiting for 2 damn hours for nothing, i'm still waiting and pretending that i'm fine).

next, they took an hour to x-ray and get the result (i still can consider this because i know their nature, they are always slow). the doctor (i don't know if he is a doctor or not) gave an injection to my brother and ask him to wait outside. ok then, i'm quite glad because i THINK the doctor will prescribe him some medicine and we'll off the hospital in maybe less than at most 10 minutes. but unfortunately, once again we have to wait for an another hour but nothing/nobody seems to come out and do or say something. i walk straight into the treatment's room and i ask the doctor if they were done with my brother. he said yes. i ask again why did they ask us to wait. he said this thing need to be reviewed by the doctor. and the doctor just arrived. i ask him again "lame x?". he said "lame kot". i was like @#^$#^%$&%&^%$#%. terus keluar and i ask my father to go back home along with me to pick my mom (because they were about to go to a kenduri as well) and i can go back to kL. abg aku kene ler tggu kejap kat hospital tu since doktor pon x panggil lagi. sampai kat umah kol 12. aku siap2 then terus balek. semua org pon pissed off ok. mak aku pon da marah2 dah. don't know what happen. don't know what went wrong. n i don't want to know.

been thinking about lots of things recently. works (the biggest share). life (god! i spend more than 12 hours a day at my office every day). myself (i sleep less than 6 hours a day every day). people (yeahh, tell me about it). family (ibu,abah,abg,adik,ipar,anak sedare,...). savings (saba je la, the day will come). spending (accordingly so far). commitment (work, yes. other, never). love (neahhhh, do you think i need one?). and the list goes on....

p/s please don't ever say u understand when u r actually don't understand a single word i'm saying. u r no different from others. heheh...

~sign out~

it is all over the place. i know this thing would happen. i know everything is being taking care of (no doubt, i can see it clearly). but  something is wrong somewhere (i don't know where). u know what, i will never say no (considerate. word of the day). because i'm not the one who owns (i wonder if u have the same thought), i have my own territory (it is getting smaller, or maybe...it is small) and u have urs. i'm free to do anything i want and so are u. i think i never took 'peace of mind' out of u (unless u have ur own problem which i don't know), could u please give me back mine perhaps? (got what i mean? heheh)...heheh, don't worry. whatever it is, i'll take a good care of myself (experienced this before. so, no big deal i guess. it is happening anyway. heheh...)